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Session begins: Now It’s Time To Start: Stop Being A Stupid Drunk
Now that you’ve been confronted with brutal honesty, it’s time to take the next step towards stepping out of the drunk-zone, and into real life.
By now, if you’ve made any effort at all to stop drinking, you’ll notice strange things happening within and around you. Some of these things may or may not be actually happening.
That’s because aside from your body and your mind, for those of you who can admit to it, your soul & spirit, have been forcibly drowning.
When your being is so routinely immersed in substances, in this case, alcohol, it is a lot like taking a tub of water, and bobbing your head beneath it to muffle the constant noise coming from another room. Sure, you come up for air, but back into the water you plunge, before your hair has a chance to dry.
One of the things booze does, is it interrupts the natural and vital, systematic routine your body’s vital organs do.
It’s a little like having a brand-new car. With this new car, you take extraordinary care to maintain it in every way, except adding oil.
It does not matter how many times you wash & wax the vehicle. Doesn’t matter what sort of fancy tires you have on it. Doesn’t even matter if you keep the gas tank filled. If you ignore the signs that your car is in distress because it needs oil, your brand-new car is going to get very broken, and that’s expensive.
Same is true for your body, mind, soul & spirit.
If you ignore the needs of the whole you by drinking booze, you will stop working properly, and get broken. Maybe even dead.
If not dead-dead, parts of you will die, and over time, so will the rest of you die.
You cannot keep dunking your head under water; you cannot keep ignoring the warning signals that something just isn’t okay. I’m not scolding, here. I’m saying, pay attention. PAY ATTENTION.
If you are ready to pay attention, you may notice that recognizing signs like tremors, fleeting thoughts, lack of focus, physical pain, bouts of vertigo (dizziness, unaccounted-for clumsiness), visual or auditory hallucinations (seeing stuff out of the corners of your eyes, hearing things, for example), lack of sleep, too much sleep, vomiting, diarrhea, muscle spasms, heart palpitations, and any other signs or symptoms, should not be ignored.
I cannot emphasize enough the importance to seek medical help. Withdraw from substances has been known to be deadly, if not properly supervised. And there is help out there. In an emergency, dial 911. Otherwise, call your doctor, and have a frank discussion with her or him about where you are at, and what your goal is, and you need their valued advice. You do not have to go through this, alone.
Depression very well may play a bigger role in what you’ve been doing to the whole you, than you ever thought. It may be the reason you started abusing alcohol in the first place. You started using it, for recreation and socialization. Then, it became the (or one of the) drugs of choice, to help you cope with depression.
(Depression will be discussed more extensively in Part IV: The Great Exchange: Deep, Dark Thoughts vs Light of Day.)
For now, you need to realize there’s things that have to change immediately. Whatever maintenance plan you’ve been using on you, clearly is deficit. It ain’t working. Your car needs oil, so-to-speak.
1. Take notes of symptoms (such as any mentioned above, or any that is not listed, but ought to be. Not everyone experiences all of the same symptoms. And this list you make, may help someone else going through their own hell, down the road.)
2. Talk to a medical professional. Seek emergency help, if necessary. There’s confidentiality laws, so unless you are an imminent danger to someone else or threatening suicide, there’s a reasonable expectation of privacy from professionals.
3. Changes ASAP: Intake & Consumption:
INTAKE: You cannot keep drinking, even a little, and think it’s going to be okay. And you will find yourself having an internal dialogue that will justify why you can or cannot have a drink. Most often, this comes in the form of Procrastination: “Tomorrow I’ll Quit”, and Justification: “But this is a Special Occasion” or Irrational Excuse: “This has been the shittiest day of my life.” You reading this may have other experiences that facilitate and justify ‘one more for the sober-road’. Please feel free to share ‘em if you got ‘em.
CONSUMPTION: If you don’t quit consuming the wrong things, you are the one that’s going to be consumed.
CONSUMPTION: You must start giving your car oil! In other words, if you don’t start consuming the right things (whether or not you quit drinking yet), you are doing very real, maybe permanent damage to you. This impedes recovery like you wouldn’t believe. Or maybe you do, because you are nodding your head while you read this, partially paralyzed from a stroke, or some other thing brought about because of negligence and destructive behavior.
INTAKE & CONSUMPTION:
You have to eat. You have to eat the right things. You have to drink. You have to drink the right things.
What happens when you put something other than gasoline in the gas tank of your car, like, say, sugar?
That’s right! Serious problems.
Same thing’s true when we put the wrong things into our whole selves. What goes in, must come out.
So, the next part, Part III: WHO ARE YOU? will be about what is good to eat, drink, permit and refrain from.